Monday, June 18, 2012


It's really strange to me, that I could be hoisted on the shoulders of the world's most loyal, wonderful, generous friends, who love me so deeply... and still lose sleep over the one friend who has never reciprocated the kind of friendship I've offered. 

I've found myself petrified at the thought of losing anyone in my life. Loss has always hit me in a deep, raw, place, but since my sister died I want to keep everyone so close, keep them near, I don't want anyone wiggling out of my grasp. I know I can't live like that, but I also know I can't help it.